Let’s talk about Mental Health

Hello beautiful people!
I debated long and hard about writing this post, but I think it’s about time I talk about this.
Today is Bell Let’s Talk Day, which is a beautiful campaign that Bell has created where they donate 5 cents to mental health initiatives for every text, tweet and Facebook post sent with the hashtag #BellLetsTalk.

This blog has always been a wonderful way for me to talk about my love of all things beauty, but today we’re going to go beyond the surface and take a deeper look.
I have Anxiety. I’ve struggled with it on and off my whole life, sometimes being able to manage it, and sometimes, especially lately, not so much.
Anxiety is different for everyone who struggles with it, which is why I think it’s so difficult for other people to empathize or understand, but the one thing I can tell you is that it is not something that can just be turned off. 
“Just don’t worry” and “It’s all in your head” are not sentences that can be rationalized, no matter how much you wish they could be. It’s literally like being a slave to your own thoughts, and having no control over how you feel – and it is terrifying.
I recently hit a point where I could no longer do it by myself, my coping mechanisms had failed me and I became a prisoner to my own brain.
I have never felt so lost in my entire life, the hopelessness of feeling like who I was as a person was completely stripped away, and all that was left was some anxious mess I didn’t recognize was too much.
I didn’t want to turn to anyone for help because it’s not something that’s openly talked about, and I’d always been able to manage it on my own. I didn’t want anyone to tell me just to “get over it” or “stop thinking about it”, so I let it build and build, and had panic attack after panic attack until it broke me.
I finally asked for help. Asking for help was probably one of the hardest things I’ve ever done in my life, but it’s also the proudest I’ve ever been of myself. There is no shame in asking for help! I had some incredible people who supported me through it – friends and family, which made it a little easier to be brave. When I was in a moment of being ashamed of myself for needing help my sister said to me “Do you feel ashamed when you get a cold? no. Because it’s not something you can help” Nothing will ever resonate with me the way that did – it was like a lightbulb went off and I found a courage in myself I thought I’d lost. There is nothing wrong with needing a little help in life, you just have to BE BRAVE!
I understand feeling completely alone, and I understand feeling like no one could possibly grasp what’s going on in your head, but you need to remember that you are not alone!
I’ve finally managed to put the pieces of myself back together, alone, and with the support of the people who love me, but I know that this is something the will continue to effect me. The difference is that I’ve also learned that my Anxiety does not define me, this is not who I am – it’s just a part of me that I need to work on by myself, and with help, and hopefully over time it wont be a part of me at all.
The stigma that surrounds all aspects of mental health makes it incredibly difficult to reach out and find the help that works for you, whether it’s seeking medication, talking to a therapist or even just talking to a friend. we need to end this stigma so that anyone with struggles can feel supported instead of criticized, we need to educate people to show compassion instead of judgement.
My journey has been tough, and continues to be tough, but I am lucky enough to have love and strength within the people in my life to begin coming out of it. Everyone should have that opportunity, everyone should be able to talk about their mental health whether or not they have struggles – but really, who are we kidding? we all have struggles. We just need to show kindness to one another instead of throwing out words like “crazy”.
Just remember, no matter what you’re walking through, or where you’re at in your journey, YOU ARE NOT ALONE and YOU ARE NOT CRAZY.
I am here for any of you that may want someone to talk to, I can’t guarantee that I’ll say the right things, but you’ll know you’re not alone, which is so important! Let’s end the stigma, and love one another.

Until next time my loves,
xoxo
-Lo

Maybelline Dream Velvet Foundation Review

Hello beautiful people!
Happy Sunday! I hope you’ve all had a lovely weekend.

I was paroozing my local drug store a couple of weeks ago, when I came across a Maybelline display with their new Dream Velvet Soft-matte hydrating foundation ($12.99CAD).
This really intrigued me because you normally don’t see matte and hydrating together on the same product, so I figured I’d better give it a whirl!

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I picked up the shade 05 Warm Porcelain (which I believe is the palest one on the collection) and it’s a decent match for me, maybe slightly too dark but as long as I blend it down my neck you can’t tell. The range has a lot of different shades, so if you’re not super pale like me you should be able to find a good match!
This has a surprisingly thick formulation, so you only need a tiny amount for your whole face, and the coverage is a really nice medium to full which can be nice during the winter months while we’re all trying to finish eating our Christmas chocolates! (hopefully it’s not just me!)
Despite it’s thickness, it actually feels really light and fresh on the skin because it’s almost a whipped texture, which allows it to blend beautifully onto your face.
“Soft-Matte” is the perfect description of this foundation, it’s definitely not dewy or glowy at all, but it’s not completely cakey and matte either, it leaves your skin looking natural and healthy without drying it out at all.
The longevity of this stuff is really nice too, I’ve worn it for a full 7-8 hours before without having it break up or rub off, and only having to powder once. I did find that after a really long day (10+ hours) it started to break up in my t-zone a bit, which could be due to my combination skin.
All and all I’ve really been enjoying this baby! If you’ve been thinking of trying this, or you’re just looking for a new base, I would definitely suggest giving this a try!

Until next time my loves,
xoxo
-Lo

Top 15 of 2015

Hello beautiful people! and Happy New Year! I cannot believe it’s 2016, 2015 seemed to absolutely fly by!
I hope you all had a lovely and safe holiday season, full of delicious food and family fun!

I figured to start off the new year I would share my top 15 beauty products of 2015, these are all things I reached for over and over again last year, and I’ll definitely continue to love them throughout 2016. Although, I am quite excited to see all the new products that this year will have to offer!

Some of these are products I’ve already raved about here on my blog, so I’ll just give you the short version of why I love them, because otherwise this post will be incredibly long!

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First up is a product I was pretty late to the party with – The Beauty Blender ($28.00 CAD) literally changed my whole beauty routine in 2015. This magical sponge blends foundation into your skin without allowing it to cake or bunch, it just applies your make up so flawlessly and naturally that it doesn’t look like you’re wearing anything! Foundations that didn’t sit well on my skin when I applied them with a brush went on like a dream with this little guy. If you haven’t tried this, you absolutely need to, it will change your life!

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Choosing an eye shadow palette was really difficult, but when I went through my collection this Stila Eyes are the Window palette in Soul ($59.00 CAD) really stood out to me. This Palette is beautiful with a mix of mattes and gorgeous shimmers, with just the right mix of cool and warm tones. The formulation blends like butter and feels like velvet, they wear all day long, and you can create any kind of look you want! This palette would suit so many different skin tones and eye colours that I think it would be a welcome addition to anyones collection.

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Becca x Jaclyn Hill Shimmering Skin Perfector in Champagne Pop ($46.00 CAD) was a highly talked about and popular product last year for very good reason. This is one of the most stunning highlighter’s I’ve ever used, but it’s definitely not for the person who wants a subtle shine to their cheekbones, because this baby is GLOWY. I like to use this on nights out, or when I want to feel really glam and sexy, but I also really like to use this as eye shadow! This is limited edition, so grab it if you can find it!

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I absolutely love this Full Lash Bloom mascara by CoverGirl ($8.00CAD). I reached for this every single day in 2015, over any high end mascara in my collection! This mascara volumizes and separates my lashes beautifully without flaking or transferring at all! Pick this up in your local drug store and give it a try because it is amazing!

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NUDESTIX lip + cheek pencil in Blush ($28.00CAD) has been my purse lipstick all year long. This is the perfect nude for everyday wear, it adds just the right amount of colour to your lips to compliment any make up look. The formulation is super long lasting, and incredibly smooth and creamy. I got this one as a birthday gift, but it’s definitely inspired me to want to try out more from this line!

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The Living Proof PHD dry shampoo ($27.00 CAD full size) is literally the most incredible dry shampoo I’ve ever used. It actually cleans your hair and absorbs oil and odour, this can extend the life of your shampoo for an extra day or two. it doesn’t leave a film on your hair or scalp, and it doesn’t weigh down your hair at all. It’s a bit pricey, but to literally make my hair look freshly washed on the third day after I’ve shampooed is incredible. This is the small size which is $14.00 CAD, but I’ll definitely be picking up the full size.

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The Urban Decay Naked Skin foundation ($45.00 CAD) is something you all know I absolutely love. This has incredible coverage, it’s got more of a natural/dewy finish than a matte one which I absolutely love. It lasts all day long, and doesn’t cling to dry patches or bunch up on the skin. It’s got quite a watery formulation, which means one pump will cover your whole face no problem, especially if you apply it with a beauty blender! If you’re looking for a new foundation, I would definitely recommend this guy!

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This is a product that’s fairly new to me, but it still get’s added to my favourites because it’s that amazing! The Laura Mercier translucent loose setting powder ($46.00 CAD) sets make up without looking cakey or dry. This blurs imperfections and gives your skin a really natural flawlessness! The only downside is that loose powders are very hard to travel with, and very easy to knock off one’s vanity (yes, I’m speaking from experience) so be careful with this stuff!

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Again, this is a product I’ve gone on and on about, so I wont stay here too long. The Urban Decay Naked Skin concealer ($34.00 CAD) completely replaced my NARS radiant creamy concealer in terms of holy grails. This stuff doesn’t crease at all, it’s got a beautiful creamy consistency so it blends out flawlessly. I literally can’t say a single bad thing about this product! Go and try it – trust me.

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This is something I don’t think I’ve mentioned on my blog before, and it’s the only skin care item in my 2015 favourites. This is the Saje Skin Fitness balancing toner for combination skin ($19.95 CAD), it’s a spray on toner made of a combination of natural essential oils, so you can imagine how incredible this smells. I use it morning and night, and have really noticed an improvement in the texture and look of my skin, it’s helped to soften and brighten while decreasing the amount of oiliness in my T-zone. I know Saje isn’t available everywhere, but if you’re curious to try out some really great natural skin care product’s, I would suggest taking a look at their website!

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The Charlotte Tilbury Filmstar Bronze and Glow ($80.00 CAD) is definitely another holy grail product for me. This is a great duo for contour/highlight that I think would suit every skin tone. The contour shade is just muddy enough to add an incredible shadow under the cheekbones, and the light gold of the highlight shade just adds the most subtle and sexy glow to the cheeks. It’s definitely a luxury product – but if you’re looking to splurge I would definitely say this is worth the money.

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The Maybelline Brow Drama tinted brow gel ($10.00 CAD) is definitely hit or miss for some people, but I really like it. I find it helps to keep my brows in place, and defines the sparser and blonder hairs that you normally wouldn’t be able to see. This product doesn’t dry down crusty, and it lasts all day! The applicator is a bit weird at first, but you get used to it the more you use it.

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The Hourglass Ambient bronzer in the shade Luminous Bronze Light ($60.00 CAD) is the only bronzer I used in 2015. It’s the perfect shade to warm up the face without being to orange, and it has swirls of the regular ambient lighting powder in it which makes it look natural and pretty on the skin. Again, a bit of a pricier product, but for pale skin like mine it’s really hard to find a good bronzer, so this is worth the money to me!

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The Kat Von D Everlasting liquid lipstick in Lolita ($24.00 CAD) was my go-to stay in place lipstick all fall/winter. It’s the perfect deep pinky-brown shade that just adds real vampiness and sexiness to a look without wearing a dark purple or red lipstick. These have the most incredible formulation that just doesn’t budge at all once it dries down, they don’t ball up or flake off, and they don’t dry out your lips which is a huge bonus. I love to wear this on evenings out when I know I’m going to be doing a lot of drinking/eating – but with this baby I don’t need to worry because it will still be there!

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Last but not least is the NARS Audacious lipstick in the shade Anna ($39.00 CAD) This is another great lipstick for fall/winter because it’s a beautiful deep mauve shade which looks incredible with a really smoky eye. This formulation is creamy and smooth and definitely long lasting. Obviously not as long lasting as the Kat Von D one, but this is a good one to wear for a date night or night out with your girls. It’s incredibly moisturizing and feels really comfortable on the lips, I would definitely suggest picking one of these up!

That’s it for now my loves,
Sorry about my absence in December, but post’s should come more regularly now!
Until next time,
xoxo
-Lo